energy.
it has recently become more apparent to me how negativity attracts nothing but bad energy.
take for instance, the people who believe in horoscopes. now im not saying horoscope readings are/arent true, but the higher your positivity, the more likely you are to take away a better message from it.
im not one for horoscope definitions, but today i noticed the pattern among some of my friends.
the people who “vibrate at a lower frequency” (yes, i watch The OC alot) usually dont feel deserving of good things.
reading a friend’s blog and twitter page, i have come to realise what a self-pitying person she is.
she could go on and on for pages about how she is heartbroken and she over-analyzes every horoscope reading there is to be over-analyzed and/or meticulously looks for hidden meanings that arent there to begin with, just so she can harp on the bad things in life.
but when she has a good day or is shown extra attention by any one person, she barely mentions it or just takes it completely for granted.
i know im no one to judge. ive had my fair share of angry meets post-meltdown journal entries, but i know i count my blessings. twice, most of the time.
i mean i could talk forever about what an amazing day i had, even if it simply consists of taking a walk by myself or meeting a friend for an hour, just to have coffee.
when i was going through a bout of self-diagnosed depression and was at my lowest, i surrounded myself with people i love but no matter how hard i tried not to, i probably dragged them through the mud with me. its all i could do. i had not an ounce of motivation in me to be stronger. and i feel guilty for that everyday.
and still, they stuck by me; my pillars. and helped me wash away all pain and every last bit of negativity my bones had absorbed over the months of drowning in misery.
“cant fall forever.”
i suppose its somewhat unfair for me to talk about how negative people are because i still get cranky, i still pick at unnecessary things that disturb me. but having gone through the worst to come out of it a better, more stable person, i believe that that gives me a small right (if not an advantage) to justify the way i feel about people lacking the strength to go through another bad day.
everyone has those. all the time. its just a choice you make to allow it (or not) to have a hold on you.
but at the same time, i understand how hard it is to look at things from a point of view that isnt tainted and distorted, so really, its not my place to say.
i guess the point of all that is just that i want everyone to be happy.
i really think its not impossible to be genuinely happy everyday, even when youre going through a horrible time in life. or multiple horrible times.
choose the ones that make you feel, choose the choices that are better for you.
make your own happiness.
