finally.
finally, my thoughts have started to solidify. i have returned from days of swimming through them like clouds of envy and uncertainty. and all it took was an outsider to profess faith in our strength.
i allowed myself to be temporarily blinded by my all-consuming dislike and forged a bond between me and the anti-her that lived in my brain.
she was a monster with fangs for teeth and a sharp mind used to tease.
her victory : she made me doubt myself, my right to make you happy.
looking back on the hours that precede my realisation, i am forced to come to terms with my inability to keep focused. i dont know where along the way i lost my head, im not sure why i agreed to be mentally disabled when all i needed to do was take a step back and slightly under-analyse everything.
she is not a presence i need to worry about.
she is no longer of significance to our being.
promises made or not, i know with every fiber of my being that i will not have to suffer a loss because of your history.
why waste my energy on underhanded attempts when all i have to do is wholeheartedly trust?
id rather spend time living in your heart.
you are awe-inspiring, my first breath after coma.
my last breath every night.
we are infinite.
