cant fall forever.
there are swirls of orange and yellow,
a dusty hue of reds and purples.
her eyes meet mine every so often and i catch myself hoping for a glimmer of peace between us.
those moments come swift but are just as quickly replaced with a dislike so intense, it unnerves me.
i am not sure where these emotions will carry us, but i know that we will go through them together.
the motions, the unexpected hangings we sentence ourselves with;
euthanasia in its most selfish form.
i speak to her in my sleep nightly
and tell her that her choices are hers alone and that she makes her own future.
i whisper a quick “im on your back” and wait patiently for a response.
once in awhile (although hardly), i hear her calling out to me, screaming back the exact same words as i walk away.
but i couldnt ever permanently leave her side.
i am her comfort and safety net but sometimes, she needs to fall.
at least we both know we Cant Fall Forever.
